Ouch! This must be one of the most humbling moments, but it’s also the effect of disobedience, a lack of focus and zilch restraint. I kinda bargained with God. With a deadline, an answer, a stubbornness to hang on. “It’s not right,” He said. “Just won’t you listen?!” And in my finite human self, I still wanted to barge in, still wanted to cave in to earthly desires. But what do I know, really? Faith isn’t about doing it my way, it’s about letting go and believing. I would laugh at this little silliness in a month, a short bedtime story for the grandchildren perhaps, heh. But for now, He says, “Be still, be still, and know that I am God.”
How He moves in mysterious ways. I’ve stepped on a toe too many with the wrong steps so I’ll quit leading the dance for now — He does it better anyway. So, You, which song next? :) This time, I say, here I am. Here I am, Lord, for the second time. It is done.
